September 3rd – November 30th!

Haha, look at the date..yeapp.. more than a month hey! Well, well..I’m back.

I’m in my semester break at the moment, HOWEVER I have to do my retail practical here at Farmasi Rimadex in Cyberjaya. Cool though! I get to come in at 2.00 pm -10.00 pm! Lovely !! I love this kinda working time..

First week was kinda tough for I am not used with the brand name..the only thing I know is Ponstan and Panadol? *sigh* But as time passed by, I know myself around so its easy. Plus the workers around here are helpful so nothing to worry about. Don’t ask y I chose Cyberjaya cause that’s the nearest pharmacy and the only pharmacy that accepted me. No worries though, I love the mentality of people around here. Just like how I wanted it to be

 

A week before that my friends and I went off to Penang. Our hotel was at Batu Feringghi. It was a train trip. Hell it was FUN! We took midnight train so we could reach the destination early in the morning. Well it was just for one night.No harms..but WAR MUSEUM is THE WICKED THING EVER! seriously I love it a lot!

 

الشهيد عبيدة القدسي…..إلى جنان الخلد ياذن الله… The Martyr, Obaida Al-Qudsi

Technorati Tags: Obaidah Al-Qudsi,IIUM,Al-Aqsa Society,UIAM

11 Syawal 1430 H

Lecture theatre, UiTM Puncak Alam

 

Salaam readers. I would like to wish the Muslim readers “Eid Mubarak, Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri and كل عام و أنتم بخير

This year for the first time I celebrated Eid without my eldest sis cause she celebrated with her in-laws and the first time not to celebrate Eid in my hometown.

We visited the relatives around KL as well as our Palestinian friend whose husband is studying in MMU Cyberjaya. She , Ranaa has 2 lovely children named Sujjud (the girl) and Ossama (the boy). She even introduced us to a new friends of hers who came from Iraq named Fatin.

Oh by the way, I asked her about the Palestinian boy who got shot in Palestine recently. I mean well yeah lots of Palestinian are being shot anyway by the Israeli Force, but this boy was well known in Universiti Islam Antarabangsa (UIA) or in other name International Islamic University (IIUM). She gave me a piece of paper which looked like a flyer with his picture printed on it and at the back is written a brief story about this shaheed and how he got killed.

For this entry, I’m going to write down whatever written on the flyer (and yeah I bring it everywhere with me in my new purse )

The Martyr, Obaidah Al-qudsi

Obaidah Al-qudsi, a Palestinian artisti, known among his friends for his ebautiful voice and lovely character. Few days ago, Obaidah passed away in an Israeli hospital after being held as an injured prisoner. On 26th August, Obaidah was heading to the Abraham Mosque in the Old City of Hebron. While walking to the mosque, Israeli soldiers shot him 4 explosive bullets; 2 in the abdomen and 2 in his legs.

Obaidah, the peaceful soul was murdered in the street with cold blood. Ambulance were banned from attending to his bleeding body for 30 minutes. Seeing him bleeding didn’t satisfy their evil lust for blood, hence they beat his body mercilessly. After a while, he was arrested and sent to an Israeli hospital in occupied Jerusalem. Even since Obaidah was under their occupancy, he was in a comma. Obaidah spent about 3 weeks in the Israeli hospital and his family was not allowed to visit him till the last day of his life.

On the morning of the 13th September, Obaidah’s soul departed to its creator seeking his ultimate justice. Hasbunallahu wa ne’mal wakeel.

Obaidah will always be remembered among his family and friends for his sweet voice and lovely smile. His poetry and nasheed will always be celebrated by Palestinians, Muslims and all free people of the world as true words of wisdom and honor.

 

Synopsis about the martyr

Obaidah Maher Abdul Mu’ti Alqudsi Dwaik.

Born in 1984 in Hebron city, Palestine to a respected family. His father is a well-known ustaz and a businessman.

Obaidah started his education as early as 5 years old in the kindergarten of the Islamic Youth Society. He later joined the Al-Shar’iyah School of the Islamic Charitable Organization. He completed his school education in 2002 with an excellent score of 84%.

He later joined the IIUM where he earned a bachelor degree in Communications and Journalism. During his presence at IIUM, he was one of the active students in co-curricular activities and was always a forerunner in working for any Ummatic issue. Obaidah was elected into the main board of Al-Aqsa friends’ Society in 2003 to server for one year as one of its most active members. From the year 2004 to 2007 he led the famous Al-Aqsa Nasheed Group in IIUM.

In 2008 he returned to his hometown in Palestine to live with his family and run his father’s business. He got engaged few months later and arranged for his wedding to be held right after Eid alfitri. Unfortunately, the criminal Zionist soldiers didn’t let his family celebrate this eid happily nor let Obaidah’s fiancee enjoy her future with him.

 

Happy Eid!

 

2nd Syawal

Bukit Jalil

Hi peeps! Happy Eid to all Muslim readers of this humble blog of mine

Nothing interesting these days except that Eid for this year my family celebrated without my eldest sister since she has husband now. Well, to be honest my family n I never bothered about being the most excited people on earth during eid. It’s like yeah it Eid, so? Cause I donno..For us, Ramadhan is more happening and special (or perhaps we missed the celebration in Makkah).

Anyway, my eldest sister went back to her in-law’s site during the last few days of Ramadhan after solat al-fajr. She cried and I was blur.LOL. Well like yeah, as if before this we celebrated Eid like crazy. No, its the typical Ramadhan where my family and I will go to the masjeed for the solat then come home and sleep until the next day. Haahaha

Well today is the 2nd day of Syawal, so we decided to go and visit some relatives who are back to their homes. My aunt did an open house which well kind of dull cause  most of my cousins are not havint their vacations (see! who told u guys to study in Aussie! Suckers! LOL ).

And on the night of Eid, well u guys won’t believe it. We went to Sunway Pyramid.LOL. Well I saw a nice purse from MNG and it’s gorgeous. I mean I like it..its cool, it’s like very convenience for travelers cause it has a slot for boarding pass, currencies,tickets, passport and others. It’s quite large and can be considered as a clutch. It comes in 3 colors though; dark brown, black and beige. I saw it in Pavillion but it was beige and I didnt like it and the one in Sunway is dark brown and its LOVELY. Below are the pictures.

This one can be found on the back

 

 

The compartments that I was saying, they are engraved.

The view from the back

This one can be found on the back

The view from front

The view from the front

The inside

The compartments that I was saying, they are engraved.

19 Euros? Thats around 104.50 Ringgit Malaysia. I bought it for 99 RM :p

 

Ramadhan Kareem and Losing Weight!

YES! I’m back again..at home at the moment and today is Nuz Al-Quran. Yes yes I know I’ve been gone for too long cause I got depressed with Facebook!

On the first day of Ramadhan, FACEBOOK DECIDED TO DISABLED MY ACCOUNT! ooooooh my sweet Lord..I was like WHAT THE FUN?!!! I have lots of documents in there..pictures, videos, notes bla bla and the worst part is FRIENDS WHO I DON’T HAVE THEIR CONTACT NUMBER OR ADDRESS THAT I MET DURING THE SAMRAH IN BUKIT BINTANG! dayemmM!! Anyway, I e-mailed them and after a fortnight they replied back asking me to provide them my government-issued ID..I was like..HELLO?! But thanks to that anyway, I managed to go through my driving license and realized that it had expired for 2 months..LOL..oops my bad!

Anyways, I was on shopping spree just now and lavished myself with new head scarves! 3 pieces for RM 99.70..thats around USD 30? Cheap right? And they are gorgeous! Besides, I almost grab a pair of knee-length boots from ZARA which cost me RM 276.90 that around like what USD 100? Phewwh but my sister stopped me and said WAIT FOR THE END OF THE YEAR SALE! AND WHO KNEW, WE’LL BUY IT FOR U AS UR BIRTHDAY PRESENT..Well, my birthday is in December so they should buy it for me!

I have started to lose weight these days. Actually I’ve been planning to do it but since I’m a lazy bum I kept on postponing them and since now it’s Ramadhan I think it’s a good help as well. Come on, I used to be 58 kg ( 127.6 lbs) and within 2 months I gained 10 kg! ( 149.6 lbs). One of the reason is I had a boyfriend who loves to eat and mainly Arabian food. Kabsa, mandi, shawarma u named it! Mostly red meat! And my recent ex-bf also loves to eat everytime we went out it was either McD, Tony Roma’s, Michelangelo and etc.. AND BOOM I GAINED ANOTHER 4 KG ( thats 8.8 lbs!)

It’s kinda depressing..(well actually REALLY DEPRESSING) when u used to have that lean athletic body and suddenly everything goes wobbly..hence I decided to make a diary mostly on my diet, activities and current weight..I’ll weigh-in every Sunday and have set up a few food recipes for me..I’m hoping for the best!

 

ALL in ONE ^_^

Men get and forget but God gives and forgives

28 Sha’ban 1430,

Puncak Alam

Good day to my fellow readers. Hope everyone is feeling good and preparing for the Holy month ^_^. It is difficult to post new stuffs in here as the internet connection prohibits me from doing so and I’ve returned the Celcom Broadband to my brother-in-law. So, I’ll be posting up everything in one post.

Recently my friend from Kuwait,Ahmad came down to Malaysia with his cousin, Abdullah. I got to know him from Facebook (yeah, this social networking thinggy is really helping me to communicate with everyone around me ). And on his final night in Malaysia he introduced me to Algerian sisters whom they met in Redang. Selma and Amina. To my surprise, the girls stayed near my place in Bukit Jalil however they left Malaysia yesterday cause Selma was doing her 3 months internship and Amina came to visit her and spent her summer vacation before she starts her university life (she just graduated from high school ). They both live in Paris.

Last Friday, we went for dinner at Al-Andalus for some jolly night and trying to make their final days memorable and fun. So my friend Suleiman joined us and my son Amoodi came a bit later cause he had to send someone to LCCT. It was good chit-chat..till 1 am but later the girls went to Hard Rock Cafe, I wished to join but I know my parents will prohibit me so I went home with Amoodi since he also lives nearby my place.

On Sunday, I went out to Pavillion for another time out with the girls. Suleiman joined me as well cause he didn’t want me to be alone cause the girls will be at the Spa then they’ll join us at Espressamente Illy. Illy, one of my favourite places and I guess still love Fahad. I GUESS..the one that really bothers me…*GOD HELP ME OUT HERE!* We snapped pictures and I left home cause I have to go back to school on the same night.

Their flight was on Monday at 7.30 p.m. I’m glad Amoodi sent them at least I know the girls are safe. I know most will be wondering y the hell am I beng so concerned bout the girls? Well, I hardly make friends with girls hence when I found some one who I think I can get along with, I try to care for them just like how I care about my sisters.

Back to the quote I put up, I heard it during the Dean’s List Award. It was uttered by a mother of my last classmate, Allahyarham Ahmad Ashraf bin Sulaiman. He left us all on June 29,2009 due to a car accident. He gained cGPA of 3.92. According to his mother, that’s the sentence that keeps rewinding in her mind. She even told us all during her speech that he wanted to work in Saudi so that he could help out the Malaysian pilgrims in getting cheaper treatment as well as giving a good service cause of language barrier. This strucked me. His dreams were the same as mine!! I wept silently in the hall knowing that I’ve never been a good friend to him nor close to him but suddenly I feel like my heart was telling me to continue his dreams. Perhaps this is a way of me cherishing his presence. I ask Lord to guide me and help it comes true insha’Allah.

I just completed a book by Paulo Coelho called “The Zahir”. I know its just fiction but it moved me, shook me and helped me look at the world in a different angle. It made me forgave whatever my past did to me. Even forgave whatever Fahad had said to me that I know ripped my feelings once. There’s a part in the book that goes “

The energy of hatred won’t get you anywhere; but the energy of forgiveness, which reveals itself through love, will transform your life in a positive way. It will heal the scars left by some of the injustices committed against you in your life. All hatred does is to feed your constant desire to feel sorry for yourself, because you were the victim of people stronger than you. Or else it makes you go to the other extreme and disguise yourself as an avenger ready to hit out at the people who hurt you and IT’S A WASTE OF TIME”

“Show respect for your time on this earth, and know that God had always forgiven you and always will”

So here I am, learning to forgive my past and reborn myself in order to feel happy; a state of longevity,divine and extreme peace that the whole world has lost. Hopefully this approaching Ramadhan will help me out. I’m signing off now. Till we meet in the next post.

 

3rd Malaysian Conference on Tobacco Control

18 Sha’ban, Bukit Jalil

Hiya peeps! Been a while ay?! Ya ya..my laptop is being a pain in the neck n I decided to get a new one! I got myself a BenQ Joybook Lite U101..its darn small n I can just pop it in my handbag!

Weighing just 1 kg..what else do i need? I’m a heavy social networker LOL so I carry it everywhere n it allows me to blog,check my Facebook, MSN n others..

The Joybook, I got myself the black one!

Assignments, upcoming tests and my friends are going back to their countries.OMG, I’m just trying to co-op with everything! Not to forget, Ramadhan is around the corner. I’m just glad Samrah has ended so now I could focus on my academics..LOL

Anyway, I recently went to the 3rd Malaysian Conference on Tobacco Control. It was great to see all the activist all over ASEAN countries sitting together and exchanging their experience in their on countries in making their countries a smoke free country. N I’ve been giving the responsibilities as one of the student leaders to join in. Seems like another busy student life..lol gotta go back to UiTM and set up a committee..

Well thats all I could say in this post. My brain isn’t letting me think..!

 

Letting go has never been easy, but holding on can be as difficult. Yet strength is measured not by holding on, but by letting go.

If u love someone, let him go. If he ever comes back, then he is your. But if he doesn’t, then his love was never yours to begin with

Puncak Alam, 30 Rejab 1430

1.14 am

Where should I begin? Ok here goes, this evening I tried to post up the pictures of Puncak Alam BUT my connection was so dang slow it failed Sorry!!

Oh anyway, heard bout the eclipse? Yeah, Asia was shrouded by it! However I didnt manage to capture any of it due to :

(a) I don’t have the hi-tech cam

(b) It was raining that morning

I was sad though, disappointed as it was the longest eclipse lasting approximately 5 minutes and the next eclipse will occur like urm the nexy 300 years? I DON’T EVEN KNOW WHETHER ITS ALREADY JUDGEMENT DAY OR NOT! Somehow, I still got to read about it on the news ^^

Anyway, people. I did a heap of thinking for the past few days and made a tough decision. I deleted F from my Facebook list. Yes, I DELETED HIM. U guys must been wondering why. Well see, I was chatting with him before I deleted him off. It was kind of the last chat. I remember him telling me that he was having fever for the past 4 days and so just now I saw him online and asked. He got admitted to the hospital for dengue. Well, alhamdulillah he’s out now and I’m sure he’ll be running around in a few more days.

I realized I have my own dignity to think of.In fact, life has to go on no matter what because the worst is still yet to come. I realized as well that he still loves flirting around and getting the attention from the people around him. Believe me, I’m not looking for a companion who still flirts around and then come home just to let go his desire. No, i’m not a toy. I want a man who is mate-potential and then have the sense of responsibility to be the leader of the house as well as the family. I’m not seeking a date-potential and after sometime when he’s done, we all go separate ways.

Call me crazy, but yes I have my own career and goals to pursue.I don’t want to wait for so long and wasted my time knowing that in the end things aren’t working out. Like hello? time waits for no man! Yeap, I did give him 3 months but that doesnt mean I can’t delete him off. He told me to get out from his life and here I am. I  just erased my presence in his life. So he won’t even know what’s my next activity nor what’s my status message on Facebook anymore. ZERO. Plus I don’t see the point of having someone in your friend’s list but aren’t in talking terms. That’s not friends at all. So, this evening I clicked on tab that says Friends,searched for his name and before I clicked the “x” symbol, I prayed to Lord and closed my eyes and VOILA! He’s gone. Out of sight!

So 3 months starting from today, let it be. If he ever comes back within the 3 months perhaps things can starts fresh. But after 3 months? Maybe we’ll have to start the whole process all over again.  And so the quote says, “if he ever comes back he is just meant to be with me if not then the love wasn’t mine to begin with”. If he wants me back, he knows what to do and know where to find me

Cheers..

 

Doubt is a sin in love…

KL Central, 24 Rejab 1430

14.18 hours

Heya folks! I’m at Starbucks KL Central at the moment. Yeah, finally I got to see people from all sorts of backgrounds. Urm wait, don’t get me wrong am not saying that Puncak Alam doesn’t have real people but over there everyone is there for one purpose, to gain a piece of paper. Yeah, THE SCROLL!

Anyway, I’m here in KL Central cause my friend/classmate/housemate/ex-schoolmate gave me a ride to here as she was on her way home in Taman Tun.Plus, one of my friends from Facebook decided to lend his phone to me (my phone has behaved indecently and decided not to be a good companion anymore!). Anyway, I’m so excited to go to Bukit Bintang tonight for the samrah festival. Well I went last week but with my sisters and mom but tonight I’ll go with friends. The car will be empty on the way there but will be full on the way back.. ROFL

Anyway, I decided to write on relationship for this post since I’m at the most comfortable situation now which is to be in public enjoying the busy sound of life.. HOHO. Okay, during my break I got to know one guy from Facebook. Well, unexpectedly my family knew him before I got to know him (so lets just say he’s a friend to my family). I don’t have to start how they all got to know each other but they all did go out for a lunch together in Hadramawt Restaurant but I couldn’t join them as I was working (yeap, in this Starbucks) and I was having some issues with my boyfriend (ok back then he was my boyfriend but now not anymore..he’s history)

Ok, so things kind of went too fast (ok can someone please tell me what is too fast n what is not too fast in a relationship?) Hey, I’m not blaming the gravity for making me fall in love with this guy ok! If I were to choose, I’d rather fall in chocolate instead of falling in LOVE. Cause love is an evil angel! (now how cool is that? evil but an angel..LOL). Lets just call this guy F aite? I don’t want to expose who he is actually, I’m sure he won’t like it. It all started by just going out, having lunch and movie then we both kind of hooked up. Well, maybe its because he already knew my family, so I skipped the interviewing part or should I say “let me just check upon him first then only I’ll introduce him to my family”.

During my semester break, I had to re-sit a paper. Interesting part I only have to go to Shah Alam on certain days as it was a self-learning thinggy and I only had to attend tutorials n tests as well finals (duh!). Anyway lets skip the small parts, well there were a few times I had to go to class but didn’t have any transportation! So he showed up,woke up early (eventhough he kinda dozed off while driving..mwah) and sent me to UiTM. How cool is that? Hey I’m not saying I’m taking advantage of him or whatever, he showed care n interest. Since my tests usually lasted for an hour, so he waited in the car till I finished the test then will go back to have lunch together or maybe hang out or just go back home. It happened twice, the other one when I had exams at 2.30 pm n in the morning he had to perform in the Uni (ok, from his place/uni to my house is just 10-15 minutes drive). See, it was a special event to him n to the university since it was an honorary I dont know what bla  bla.. (LOL). After the performance, of course there’ll be an appreciation session but he skipped that part just to make sure I got to sit for the test. I swear to God, if I could just trade my heart for him. Again, he slept in the car n waited till I finish the test. Oh Lord, please grant him Ur blessings!

See, after I broke up with my previous ex.. I never ever dated any other guys. Well,I cant lie that I do have lots of guy friends but I never date them. Just a simple outing and no other hanky-panky or other intention. Just friends. I mean I rejected some proposals cause I don’t know I just don’t feel like having them as my partner. Somehow F managed to slipped through my heart. Ok, u all must be wondering is he gorgeous? Is he bla bla. No, no, no no..He’s a simple, normal guy that just managed to capture my heart. The one that I can say completed me n helped me recover through my nightmares (I had a bad experience with my ex). Well of course, I doubted him (which is the biggest sin in love). I blamed it on my past (eventhough he told me before the past is past..but to me it’s a nightmare!). I began to question myself. Why was he behaving too nice? What did he want? Maybe he’s just trying to see whether U R the easy type n etc etc etc. Besides, I was SCARED. Yeap, scared. As a matter of fact, my mom made it very clear to me, if I really love him, she’s giving me 6 months then get married. ok ok, I got dizzy there. Now how the hell am I supposed to tell this guy?

So one night, I kinda fooled around with my Facebook “What’s on your mind?”. I stated there “Whoever is willing to take me to Akon concert, I’ll consider it as a date.A full package one ^^”. See, I did this just to provoke him. Cause he never ever proposed. Call me an old-school. To me proposal is where we have the date,venue and both agree with a decision. Eventually, I provoked him on the wrong time. It was on the night where the next day he’ll be sitting for his final paper. The subject which he hates the most since he found it difficult. So I told him I’d like to sit down n talk but after he’s done with exams. Eventually he replied back by saying no more conversation after this point. (Oh shoot!)..

I let him cool down n SMS-ed him. However he provoked me back by saying he’s on a date, enjoying it and I better back off. So, I lost control, called him a jerk and BOOM!. I scratched his PRIDE. Bla bla bla. he told me to leave him alone and get out from his life. Wow. Mmm well yeah, I do love him VERY MUCH more than words could tell. SO I came out with the poem. I don’t have to tell u what happened in Penang. We planned to go together but it never happened. I went there for a workshop and hoping to just give myself some space. But one night he called, raising his voice. No no no!.. scratch it! WHATEVER HAPPENED IN PENANG, STAYS IN PENANG!

Conclusion, I still love him but I was just scared. Scared that I wont be able to treat him the way he wanted, scared that I’ll hurt him. Scared that everything was just a fairy tale and I’m just  A COWARD!

And so, I produced the poem..

 

Poem and me = long lost friend

Puncak Alam, 1.29 am

July 14 (21 Rejab 1430)

Hi,well obviously I’m in my room now. Just need to do some typing before I hit the sack.

Lately, I’ve been waking up in the middle of the nights for no reason. Perhaps the angels woke me up to prostrate myself to the creator? Maybe…

But things were different this morning, I woke up out of sudden and eventually hoped out of bed saying ‘Astargfirullah al-azim” twice before settling myself on this chair that I’m sitting now. I cant really remember what was it all about. But I was breathless and felt very empty. Very very empty. The last time I felt this empty was when I broke up with my ex-boyfriend whom I had a 2 years relationship with.

I stood up, pulled the courage and splash myself with the ablution hoping it’ll calm me down. I put myself in the most timid n humble position I could and begged for His forgiveness n guidance as well as strength to face whatever test He’s giving me at the moment.

As I waited for the calling of Fajr prayer, I stared outside my bedroom window looking at the valley. Well, my hostel is situated on the peak of a hill hence the breathtaking view. It hit me. I grabbed a pen and scribbled my thoughts n feelings onto the most available notebook I have. I dont know why I started writing. The last time I wrote poems was a few years back after some irresponsible people took my poem and claimed them as theirs.

I posted it up on my facebook and of course i’ll post it here since this is where I dwell my emotions *just like my letterhead* I’ll write in the next post how I managed to come out with such poem.. As for now, let me just drift away in sleep

I was looking at the sky one night
With the moon beaming its shine to enlighten the life that began as the sun gave its way
The stars were glittering like silver chips scattered on a blue carpet
Enhancing the glow of the midnight sky
The greatest gift of Lord I thought and hoping he was here with me
To embrace the beauty that not all mankind can cherish

Dear night, I shall let you all be the witnesses as I drain my feelings out
My heart suffered from his absence
Longing, begging and crying for him to come back
How can I break this wall?
The wall that can not be seen by others but has been separating us
That makes me a stranger to you
How I long to be in your arms like before
The arms that provide me with security and warmth
But the wall is too strong, too strong for me to break it down
And stopped me from approaching you even though u were a pinch apart

As i rambled, the night breeze swept and caressed my lips
Transferring the chill and made me reminisced your warmth presence

Just let me be your angel
The one who will caress and protect you when the crazy world is treating you cruelly
I will vow to treat you loyal as you are my royal
Please you with what I can and show you how great it is to be a man
I shall engrave this oath on my heart
And if I die while doing it, I shall fall with pride

Alas! If only the wind could convey the murmur of my heart…

 

Samrah Festival KL ’09

Ahlan! LOL..yeah, I was at the Samrah Festival last night. FOr those who has no clue what is Samrah..The name originated from the Arabic word “Samr”. It was fun. I can’t really describe the whole thing but one thing for sure I’m going there again next week!

I did take some pictures BUT I couldn’t find my memory card reader. I took the pictures using my phone since I haven’t found any suitable camera YET!

For those who are interested to go, it is happening every Friday n Saturday from 8.30 pm onwards. The last performance will be only July 26 The venue is at Lot 10, Jalan Bukit Bintang.. See u guys there!